A Little Positivity to Brighten Up Your Day

I know it's been a while. Senior year has been hitting me a little hard and I'm trying to take care of myself while also working on schoolwork, tests, extracurriculars, work, and most importantly, college applications.

I think with everything going on, I haven't had the time to do anything for me. This is why I want to get back again to filming for YouTube and blogging on here.

I promise I haven't forgotten about any of this. I just needed to find the time where I could sit down and record a YouTube video or sit down and just write another blog post.

I don't want it to seem as if I just quit. I didn't. I know I don't have much of an audience (actually, I don't think I have anyone watching at all), but I still, not even once, thought about quitting. I'm trying to balance everything in my life and find the time for myself.

This is why I decided to write a blog post to brighten up your day. I needed to tell myself that everything will be okay, so I'm here to remind you guys of that as well.

Though I've been doing YouTube for a few months and have been doing this blog for over a year, I have not been able to get a following. No one watches or reads my content and I won't lie, it's discouraging.

It's discouraging to know that I'm putting all of this content out only for no one to even see it. However, I started to tell myself that I started all of this because of ME. I wanted to do something fun for MY enjoyment. Yes, I want people to love my content as well, but if I were to always sulk about people not interacting with me, I wouldn't have been able to continue.

I believe that one day someone will see all of this and more and more people will start to care. I don't know how to grow my social medias, but I do know that patience is key and if I love doing it, then I will get somewhere one day.

This is my reminder to you all, that you shouldn't feel discouraged about something just because you think it's the end of the world.

It may feel like your world is crumbling down but if you continue to have that mindset, nothing will get better.

I have no one but myself to get me through everything. Of course I have my friends, but I'm always the last choice. It's not a good feeling when you always feel left out, but sometimes, there isn't anything you can do.

I've felt that way my whole life. I was pushed away, I was never the first choice. It made me feel terrible about myself. It made me think that there was something wrong with me. Because why am I, someone who hates drama and is always kind to everyone, never enough for anyone?

I stopped caring after last year. It was a never ending cycle and I knew that I would never be able to improve on myself if I cared about other people's opinions of me.

I began to think more positively, telling myself that if I knew there was nothing wrong with me, then there was nothing to be upset about.

You have to take control of your life to make it go your way. Your life will make the major decisions, but you have to take control of the small ones to make sure life doesn't screw you along the way.

So yes, it's okay to feel sad about something but is it really worth to dwell over and ruin your entire week?

Think about that.

I hope this post finds you all well. I want you guys to know that you are special and don't let anyone think otherwise. Start taking control.